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[anothersoul]

It's not something that I often consider but I do wonder if it's really possible to move to another world. To start a new life. I've heard that other people have done it yet I doubt it'd be that easy.

How irresponsible of me, really. I'm not a person that could just move up and leave so easily... Mm, I wonder.

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[croibhristeoir]

Of course it's possible. Difficult, perhaps...but it is not impossible.

...I do not think it irresponsible, either.

[video]

[anothersoul]

Little is impossible these days, it seems. [She sighs.] Please forgive my indecision. Leaving this city is much harder than I expected.

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[croibhristeoir]

I don't blame you for it. I had trouble deciding whether or not to leave my world as well.

...But Mami, you should know--in my own case, indecision nearly led to catastrophe. While I would not rush this choice, I would also advise settling on a decision as soon as you're able.

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[anothersoul]

...I have time. I've made sure; I've barely used any magic lately.

[It makes sense to leave. The temple, with Diarmuid there, would be safer if the worst came to past. It was far enough away from people that--she couldn't finish that thought.]

I have my juniors to consider; Miki-san, Sakura-san and Kaname-san. Then there's school, not to mention the apartment. [Excuses. She could drop out of school easily enough. Her closest relative wouldn't notice for weeks. Her juniors were safe enough with Sakura and the apartment... There were valuables there but the memories of her parents... Those would be the hardest to leave.]

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[croibhristeoir]

I understand how difficult the concept of leaving is. I wouldn't allow them to simply be lost on their own; of course I would do everything in my power to protect them. Not to mention I'm sure there's a school not at all far from here.

...Mami, I can't force your decision and I wouldn't even if I was able to. But if you should choose to accept I swear upon my name and honor you would want for nothing. Mitakihara won't be left unguarded, and above all else you will never have to feel lonely again.

Whatever your choice, I will respect it. But I want you to know that I only wish the best for you.

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[anothersoul]

Lancer-san, it means a great deal to me to hear those words. For the longest time I've hoped for a chance to be in a family again. It would mean the world to me however--I feel guilty.

[She closes her eyes, briefly, remembering what she had said to him.] What I said to you the last time we talked...how I had something important to do, I feel that I need to tell you what I meant. Maybe knowing will make you retract your offer but I can't leave you unaware.

I was going to kill them. I would challenge Sakura to a fight, find someway to drag Akemi out, and both Miki and Kaname... I planned it all out. [She's ashamed. Ashamed how quickly she had planned it. How easy it would have been--] That I even thought such things is unforgivable.

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[croibhristeoir]

...I won't retract anything I've said. [Lancer shook his head, crossing his arms and looking serious.]

I can't say I expected that, but at the same time I confess myself unsurprised. Reacting like that...well, I'm sure I need not say it was the wrong approach at the very least. But I won't condemn you for something you didn't go through with.

[stillneedawish]

Mami-san...

[ how much like Mami, to call herself irresponsible for thinking of something like that. ] I... I think it would be hard, moving to another world, even if it was a situation where it's really the best option. For - well, for lots of reasons, really. But it wouldn't be impossible either, right? You've got people who would help you sort everything out, if you wanted to.

[selfished]

[ ... Geez. It's almost difficult for Kyouko to imagine that it can be that difficult to move on from the revelations of the past few weeks, but it's more since she got over it so quickly that Mami's a complete contrast with her. ]

Like it'd be that easy to go somewhere else for us.

[heavenlyhome]

I'm certain that, if that is what you wish, it is very much possible, miss. Speaking as one who as done so herself.

[aquaticrush]

I don't think you would be irresponsible, Tomoe-san.

[regalbearing]

I would not call you irresponsible, for thinking of such a thing.

[ Mami is young. for all that she has taken the responsibility of fighting the creatures she calls witches on herself, Saber feels that she should not feel that she cannot abandon it if it is too much. in any case... it is clear that Lancer is worried. just what has been going on that she has missed? ]

[anothersoul]

[... This was the first time she talked to Kaname after hearing about the truth.]

Would it be for the best if I just left? It certainly isn't impossible, Kaname-san, yet I wonder.

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[anothersoul]

[She's not looking at the camera.]

I don't understand. I was going to hurt those girls, those so precious to me... It's unforgivable.

[anothersoul]

You're right, of course. It wouldn't change what we are, after all.

[anothersoul]

Thank you for your kind words. I'm certain it is possible, I'm merely wondering if it's the right decision or not.

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[croibhristeoir]

But you didn't. And what's more anyone can surely tell you're remorseful for even considering the idea. I of all people have no right to pass judgment on someone like that.

Besides that...if you're anything like me then I know you're harsher on yourself than any other could be.

[anothersoul]

Midorikawa-san... I'm sorry.

[aquaticrush]

I think you're a good person, Tomoe-san. You've put up with a lot.

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[anothersoul]

You must have noticed how Lancer-san was acting... you deserve to know why. I found out what witches really are. They were once girls. Like me. I'm not ever sure if I want to fight thema nymore.

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[anothersoul]

[He's right. She's her own worst critic, her own worst enemy. That was always the case even before the recent events.]

It's true... I'm just a girl. I don't even really believe in justice.

[anothersoul]

I'm giving up my magic. I--it would be better if I used as little as possible. I can give you my notebooks but I'm afraid I can't instruct you any further.

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[croibhristeoir]

I can't really say I blame you for that, either.

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[anothersoul]

...you really don't?

[aquaticrush]

That's okay, Tomoe-san. I know I was always taking up your time anyway. I'm older and I've been doing this longer -- I shouldn't have kept depending on you just because you were naturally better. If you need to give up your magic, I understand that, too.